Yeah, I feel like I read that Joanna's friends brought her rice or something. I think she cheated.
Forreal, though, I am quasi considering this. I will have to get a lot more information, because it could be very dangerous to just do something like that without knowing what you're doing. I had a long talk with my mom about it last night and she was calling it a "vision question". Is that the correct term?
I dunno. I read an article about adult ADD and I am like "holy shit, this is me to an effing T," but I don't know if everyone would read it and say that. I'll have to reread and see how vague it is. Because while I believe there is too much stigma surrounding mental illness and that we shouldn't poo-poo it all as if it isn't real...I also think the pharmaceutical companies have gone crazy/evil and are trying to convince everyone that they have something. "Is it hard to get up in the morning? Are you sad sometimes? Do you have occasional aches and pains? YOU NEED THIS DRUG." You know what I mean? But at the same time, my "ADD," or whatever is going on with me, has gotten to the point where I feel like I am no longer in control of it. My mom is like "you just need to make a schedule and organize your life" but she doesn't understand that that is the problem! I seem to be completely incapable of getting my life together in any kind of functional manner that makes sense and works. Everything is a mess, literally and figuratively. I have shit everywhere. My car is a mess, my desk is a mess, the floor and every surface surrounding wherever I am working on something is a mess. I lose things. I forget things. The latter is the most problematic. The disorganization problems, as well as my difficulty in finishing or sometimes even starting projects, frustrates the bejesus out of me and makes me feel like a worthless underachiever. But these memory problems are starting to really interfere with my life and ability to function. I can't remember things people tell me; in fact, I have difficulty continuing to listen to people while they talk to me and find my mind drifting off (even when it is someone I want to listen to and I am completely not bored with what they're saying!). I forget things my boss asks me to do, or how to do them. I have to write everything down so I don't forget, but then I lose my lists! I find myself avoidant of making commitments or taking on more responsibilities because I get overwhelmed so redonkulously easily, partly because I know I have difficulty remembering and keeping track of too many different things. It luckily hasn't gotten to the point where I forget to pay bills or forget important meetings/appointments, but that's partly because I avoid the shit out of doing too much (and "too much" for me seems to be ridiculously low in comparison to what others are capable of juggling)!
I think maybe after work today I should clean my whole effing house and my car and throw a bunch of shit away and see if I can get some of this physical clutter out of my life. I swear to gah I am going to end up on Hoarders one day.
DO YOU GUYS SEE HOW ADD THIS POST EVEN IS? I jump from one subject to another without even being able to finish my thoughts on one! UGH!