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haha you guys, thank you for sunnying my night with smiles, i like how you turn simple paint on wall or a sugar break to coffee gesture into fairy scene my dress was one of the few gift my sister gave to me but only cos the dress was really too big for her i didn't crop the pic as lawns said, it looks so paris, so european, glad moment into a life of worries thk you sweety tom not only are you gorgeous but incredibly kind, hope you never forget our marriage plan i'll probably be the only wife to encourage you to welcome guys at home !!
The call to my mum was a tough one but I'm glad I got up the courage. I think this is right, we have both been looking elsewhere for Passion. I hope this renews our Passion if not it is best to move on.
And every little gust that chances through Will dance in the dust of me and you
You are very brave, Queenofnerds: it must've been a terribly tough decision, with both options full of fearsome possibilities, but at least this way you will both have time to re-assess exactly what it is you desire, and to take steps to secure it.
You know that you have my full support, don't you. I hope everything works out and that in a short while you will have forgotten the tears and will have found happiness and Passion once again.
Back home now with my mum and dad. Back in my old room. Very strange feeling. I hope I can be a good guest! Not sure how I will focus tomorrow. But I feel very strong, this is the first time in 22 I have been just me. I have lots of plans and ambitions, I feel like everything is open to me.
And every little gust that chances through Will dance in the dust of me and you
be aware of the denial part of the lost sweetie, you know the first part when you feel strong and stuff, be quite to be clever in your choices and acts
I just want some time to make a decision. Quite happy in a lot of ways just being me on my own. Feel more appreciation for al of the other people in my life. I think its all too easy to cut yourself off when you are in a relationship.
And every little gust that chances through Will dance in the dust of me and you
Yurghh I'm not doing myself very proud at the moment. I've been seeing this Breton athlete guy for a few months but I dunno, he seems a little less interested in me than at the start. I think I'm gonna ask him if there's a problem today. I can't quite put my finger on what, but there's something really special about the way we get along, and it's nice to have a relationship entirely in French as well. I guess I'm leaving Paris in just a few weeks and I wish he wanted to just spend all this time with me like I want to with him.
We're not officially together or anything, but I think because he doesn't seem 100% into it I've been getting involved in some other things, for better or for worse. I went and had a weekend away in Strasbourg with my ex from uni which is so lovely, we just wandered around the town and talked for like 48 hours. Then I've been sleeping with this Jamaican guy as well who is really cool but it's just physical really. But I guess he makes me feel really wanted and desired, exactly what I miss from the French guy.
And then there's this Italian / Algerian guy I used to be seeing who's resurfaced in my life here in Paris, nothing's happened but spending time with him recently with my friends I just can't stop myself thinking 'oooohhh he's sooo prettyy' which is ludicrous but there we go.
So I'm a bit tangled up at the moment really. I think I'm aware that when I get back to uni next year the English midlands will necessitate a major dry spell so I'm packing it in in my last month.
Just made me realise that my ex who I met in Strasbourg, and the athlete guy here in France, when spending time with them I feel a little like I'm projecting on them certain things I'm really looking for. As if they fulfil part of the criteria but not all of it, and I just imagine the rest and then get disappointed when they don't live up to my imagined persona. Makes me feel that I should either have fun or devote myself properly to someone serious; but it just seems guys my age aren't looking for exactly what I'm looking for. I want to care for someone and be cared for, and most guys I meet either don't know how to care or are scared to be cared for.
Ah well, it's all going to have to end when I go to California at the end of the month so I'm just going to try and enjoy everything while it lasts. At least I'm getting some sex haha.
Sorry for the rant, just kinda sorting out my thoughts by writing them all down.
Maybe it's not something missing in them, maybe it's something missing in you. Could you be projecting on to them something that you yourself want to be? I think often when we construct an ideal around a partner, it reflects something absent from our own lives rather than from theirs. We project what we want on to them so we can have it through them.
Maybe you can't integrate a relationship into the rest of your life like that because you don't feel that you have a well enough established rest-of-your-life. Could it be that the relationship takes precedence for you because it's solid and certain? Is it maybe an anchor you're looking for?
really thought i was dead in love after the first one years ago... the second one just broke my heart i'm happy to know that i'm capable of this... but fucking fuck i miss her