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i had a meeting in this café i used to go, my ex too...of course he was on the terrasse, reading a book, i sat two tables away from him and found it very childish, so i went to his table, he looked at me like a stranger, i ask to sit one minute, he wasn't so pleased but said yes, dealing with weather, work, family, my appointment came and i left his table, "take care of you" was the only nice phrase he told me. So few hours ago, i decided to go in Germany at a lake i love, two hours at sunset just in the water, staring at the sky, not swimming. Then i turn cold, so cold i could put a pull-over on even the 30°degrees...
yesterday my sister told me he tried to pick up her in a pub, he can't remember she's my sister? plus she's ten years younger than him...of course as he could'nt deal with women he try with 20 young girls...
can't understand how people who loved each other as we do can act like strangers, furthermore after months of silence, hateness i guess. sad. looked at him and don't feel anything positive.
watched "away we go" from sam mendes and it made me crying of craviness, joy is so far sometimes.
Weirdelves, I hope you and your frenchie work it out. You seem to care for him a great deal and I really, really hope he can get is head in the right place for a relationship.
Sara, I know what it's like to be very fragile. Your friend should be supportive and not mean at all! I hope she realizes that soon and is better to you.
i'm at this script writing workshop for monday but seems a month, i feel very lonely, it's like i'm alone against the others, i'm extremely tired i work from 9 am to 11pm with cine club and analysis, writing 5h per day, 2hours interview with the curator then write again, i need to sleep, to rest, to be alone, yesterday a friend came in my mountain and invited me at a restaurant, i'm here 24/24 with the same people, no time to go out the japan center where we are, discuss about script, cinema, i saturated. i need my home, my cat, silence. all those japaneses spend their night partying, can't understand why am i so unable to society i'm not able to write since yesterday afternoon, i'm so worried, i've an appointment with my curator in 2h and nothing to propose... Joanna cares for me i bring back from home HOOM, i listen to it 10hours per day.
i feel extremely alone here with my personality and my ideas.
Celia, I haven't had days like that in years...and I don't miss it at all. I know that loneliness and the pressure to be creative on a schedule can be a bitch, but remember that we (tadpoles) care about you, and hope that you succeed.
I lost my job. Rather, they employed me, then a fortnight later decided they didn't actually need me. This time last year, or the year before that, I wouldn't have been hugely bothered, however this year I actually have to pay the rent, and, at present, have no way of finding £400 a month to survive on.
at least the workshop was a good thing, my project is ready for national cinema helps submitted, even if i'm psychologikely (huh) hurt...just in time back in town to see my ex 3 times in the same day with his new girld friend, and of course with her he's any pb...hate him. three weeks ago had same pb as you cosmia, but i'm glad to live in france, now every month i have solidarity help:400€ per month, so i'm ok for few month, finding a job. hope you will find something soon!
I know how you feel. I feel like I'm trapped in a cycle of constantly revisiting my feelings for my first love and having to get over them again, and I can't imagine it stopping until someone fills the void he left. And my life has come to a standstill until I know what I'm doing for the next few years. I can't meet anyone only to have to leave them come September, not like it's easy to meet anyone in this old town. I just can't get over him until I have someone else in my life. He was such a huge part of my life while it lasted; he was like a paradigm shift, he changed everything. He's why I started writing poetry.
For me, it's Does Not Suffice that always gets me crying when I've got him on my mind. The confusion, hurt and heartbreak, the sense of defeat and regret are all heartbreaking.