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preg_replace(): The /e modifier is no longer supported, use preg_replace_callback instead ¤ milky moon ¤ • View topic - This is the life sucks thread
I was upset yesterday cos my ex was saying how much he missed me and how his life is a mess, then his new girlfriend phoned and he was out the door in about 5 minutes no lie. All of a sudden happy. I wish he would stop bothering me with the domestics he is having with her, I can't handle it Don't know why he is being so selfish. Today I texted him to ask if I could go around and get a book from him and no reply. He has been texting me all week. I think he is using me to fill the gaps when she is not there or in a bad mood with him. I am really seeing a side to him that I never noticed before but now I look back I can see he has never been very empathic.
Sorry, all down
And every little gust that chances through Will dance in the dust of me and you
Shitty shit day. Muse aired their new song today managed to miss that cos of stupid work, that was 1...2 the guy I like at work is really cold now and I'm fed up. Just need to take a breather.......*inhales* *exhales* I'm ok, I'm ok. Phew. So yeah shit day.
And every little gust that chances through Will dance in the dust of me and you
One of my wisdom teeth is trying to grow through a fingertip-sized chunk of gum. It just started last night, but I could hardly sleep for the pain and it's been excruciating since, and ibuprofen doesn't seem to be doing anything. I'm going to Cambridge in five days for a week of simulated study to determine my fitness to return, I really hope it's dulled down by then because at the moment it's so intense I can't concentrate on anything.
@queenie, definitely he's rude, i think it will be better if you avoid him for some time and get rest also avoiding toxic guy like your collegue, even if he's hot, if he's a bastard it's pointless @jordan, usually such pain dissapear in few days with patience and ibuprofene, except if you have pain due to stress...oups...
I went to the dentist and got antibiotics; he said the gum was infected, so curing the infection should make the pain go away. It should only take three days, he said; in the meantime I'm taking paracetamol and ibuprofen to deal with the pain, which seems to at least reduce it to a dull throb I can mostly ignore, except at night, which is when I really need it to be ignorable.
haha, i had such infection but i waited and the bone was infected too, the surgery was an abomination, and i took this opium derived meds for one week. actually it was the best part, to be high with prescription
barely finished having tonsilitis for the second time (I'm still only two thirds of the way through my antibiotics) and I've just come down with shingles. fun fun fun
This city gets weird after dark outside term time. To start with, I noticed when I was here in winter two years ago that very shortly after dark, suddenly there was neither a nook nor a cranny in the city that didn't have a fairly large spider in it. They were everywhere. Now, in summer, it's slugs and snails - just after night falls, they're scattered about like land mines. But specifically, tonight, two odd things happened.
I went out for some chips to supplement my dinner; on the way to the chip van, I get stopped by a guy who wants to borrow my phone to call the police; I ask what's happened and he indicates a guy in a wheelchair stopped on the street. He says his wheelchair's out of power. I'm cautious that I might be being conned, and I can't quite tell if there's something actually wrong or not, but I don't want to let suspicion or scepticism drive me to abandon someone in need, so I call them and hold on to my phone at first. I try to explain what's going on, but can't really think of what to say; by now the guy in the wheelchair has started wandering on to the road - the battery came back to life, evidently - and is muttering incomprehensible curses at the guy who asked for my phone. By now I'm more confident that I'm not being conned, so I give my phone to him; he talks to them a bit, I get it back and he thanks me and I wander away, not sure what to think of what just happened.
On the way back to my hostel, a homeless guy approaches me and asks for some change. I usually give it, so I dig in to the change pocket and don't look at what I'm giving him (I never do, or else I'm over-generous; I lost a couple of hundred that way). But then he starts... haggling. He sees a five pound note sticking out of my wallet and asks for that, repeating over and over that he wants to be able to buy breakfast in the morning; eventually I feel sorry for him and give it to him, whatever he wants it for. But then he asks where I work, and I say I don't, I'm a student, I'm on benefits. He asks what benefits, I say JSA; he asks how much I get for that, how much I have saved, and starts trying to convince me to get a tenner out of the ATM for him. I apologise and extract myself from the situation, again not really sure how to feel.
Well, I threw up in a gutter in Tribeca. I went into a diner first, got toast and water, ate a few crumbs of it and spent most of the time in there curled up on the seat, then walked out looking pretty sick... Now I feel like I've been a bad advertisement for them because if I saw me walking out of there I wouldn't want to go in.
And he used to make me pray, wearing a mask like a death's head. When he put me there in the back seat, and he said, "Jesus save me, Jesus save me."
alex did you see scorcese"s movie "after hours?" you should. ......................................................................... "i hate you all of 3 (dad, sister and i) i read albert camus, he at least never let me down" from my mom
if one day i want a kid, please kill me right now, i have her genes, it's too dangerous.
I really dislike El Paso. I am trying to like it, but the thought of staying here horrifies me. This is probably one of my least favorite places that I've ever been to. I'm trying to get into a program so I can get certified as a teacher (despite the fact that I've used up all potential federal loans -- $30,000 in student loan debt already, woo hoo!) but Timothy is trying to get back into the OCS program so he can make more money. If that works out, he'll be going back to Georgia for months of training and I can't follow him. The thought of staying in El Paso alone is awful. But if I start the program, it'd be foolish to leave without finishing it. And yet, I sort of have to do something since I'm going to have to start paying back my student loans and I have no legitimate income nor the certification to get a teaching job. I don't know what to do!
I might be kicking a dead horse here but I really need to get some of this out.
I'm 17, my sister has MS which has progressed to the point where she can't walk any more. She's stabilized but I still fear that she will get worse. I haven't seen my father in five years. My mother recently lost her job and can't seem to find another. I also got rejected by a girl that was on my mind for a long time, this propelled my thoughts on the world and got me into the mental state I am in. She refused to talk to me for several months but suddenly repented and now apologizes and tries to speak to me, for some reason unknown to me my mouth wouldn't open. I've been ignoring her for a while now, I feel like a total asshole but am unable to do anything to fix the situation. I'm unbelievably tired of modern society, capitalism and social norms. Every now and then I will have a good day but it's rare, I don't like the things I used to. Most days now I just sleep and spend time in my computer listening to music and whatever else. I've followed this routine for the past two months.
I contemplate suicide almost daily, I think I'll keep going until I graduate and then end it. Joanna's and few other artists like Nick Drake's music are pretty much the only thing that is still beautiful in my world. I've also grown very narcissistic and hedonist. There's no one outside of my sister that I really care or like out there. I feel hate (in the full sentence of the word) when I hear people talk about hopeful teenage topics. Everyone is so happily ignorant of life's pains. I jealously wish I could be exactly like them, naive and content with some positive post made on a social network.
Pop culture and our whole consumer-corporation slave-master relationship is disgusting and unnatural to me, in my mind it's all connected and part of the machine that's been made against me. I'm so awkward in social interactions that I've rejected them and haven't seen anyone outside my family since school stopped. If there is anything I could do, I would wander around the country. Travelling forever. No permanent relationships with anybody, no obligations, no expectations. Of course that will never happen. I can't wait until school starts again so I have something to do. I don't particularly like the teachers, the government curriculum or the people there. I just need something to pass my time, it get's my mind of the thoughts mentioned above.
This is a short sample of my long and gratifying relationship with folk music.
that's some pretty grilling stuff dude, guess telling u to take a chill pill and come out of it when u reach 21 ain't going to cut it huh? How about thinking outside the box some, picture yerself as a happily adjusted 21 year old with a gaggle of friends and a significant other, a nice job and a passable relationship with yer mom....now backtrack for me? what seminal steps conditions and turns got u there? what's it like being there? whom was it that u can see as the turning point? or maybe what...u started a folk band and made some close friends followed by some real money? a girl/guy caught yer eye and everything just transformed around u?(sounds Buddhist to me) u just kept keepin on and things just sorta transmorgified around ya?
being a teen is no easy game, and having the set conditions u are in sounds really tough on top of it, cut yerself some slack(ever looked into the "Law of Total Slack"?{ie: church of the sub genius} ) find something u do enjoy and follow it, treasure yerself a little too, carve out some space for just u and enjoy it...and if some other is there as well...so be it. u are young dude the world is yer oyster...wether u see it or not..and believe it or not someone out there has already been exactly(to the t) where u are right now, make friends with that poor sucker right now and find out how they got through it. and besides u think 17 is bad ...try 60, gettin old ain't for whimps....if nothing else works help others there are so many that need it Om Mani Padme Hum
The thing i like best about deciphering Joanna's songs...i'm always wrong.